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I have been wanting to put this up for the last few months, I have thought very carefully about this and I have decided I don't care what you people think, as most of you are on the other side of the world.

I am gay.

Yup, I am gay, I realised I was gay at the start of the year. When I started the school year I was attracted to one of my male classmates, I thought it would last for a few days, but after a few weeks I still liked him. I then realised I never have been attracted to girls, I have always hanged out with them but I never loved anyone. Even when I did have a "girlfriend" I never loved her, I only went out with her because she asked me, being 10 I just could never say no. She later broke up with me because I never acted like I was in love with her. I felt different from everyone else, I just wanted to get away from everyone and feel "accepted". I was depressed for a few weeks and after realising that I shouldn't feel different because I was the same as everyone else. After a while I finally got enough courage to tell one of my closest friends, she didn't act shocked or suprised and she told me she still likes me not matter who I am. I felt really happy, I was worried about nothing, she still likes me as a friend. I wanted to tell more of my friends, but I remembered some of my friends were against the idea of gays. To this day I still haven't told anyone else, I don't think I could ever tell my family, classmates or the guy I still like. I am only telling you guys as it doesn't matter to me if you hate me as I have never actully met any of you in real life.
 
Polar said:
I have been wanting to put this up for the last few months, I have thought very carefully about this and I have decided I don't care what you people think, as most of you are on the other side of the world.

I am gay.

Yup, I am gay, I realised I was gay at the start of the year. When I started the school year I was attracted to one of my male classmates, I thought it would last for a few days, but after a few weeks I still liked him. I then realised I never have been attracted to girls, I have always hanged out with them but I never loved anyone. Even when I did have a "girlfriend" I never loved her, I only went out with her because she asked me, being 10 I just could never say no. She later broke up with me because I never acted like I was in love with her. I felt different from everyone else, I just wanted to get away from everyone and feel "accepted". I was depressed for a few weeks and after realising that I shouldn't feel different because I was the same as everyone else. After a while I finally got enough courage to tell one of my closest friends, she didn't act shocked or suprised and she told me she still likes me not matter who I am. I felt really happy, I was worried about nothing, she still likes me as a friend. I wanted to tell more of my friends, but I remembered some of my friends were against the idea of gays. To this day I still haven't told anyone else, I don't think I could ever tell my family, classmates or the guy I still like. I am only telling you guys as it doesn't matter to me if you hate me as I have never actully met any of you in real life.
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It's ok to be gay. It's just different, you have a strong heart and personality and the nerve for putting that out there. I respect you for that. ;)

I don't care what people are like, they usually all deserve respect. :)
 
Kinetic said:
Whether someone is gay, lesbian, bi or transgendered I accept them for who they are.

GOOD FOR YOU.

Also, yeah. Who cares what people think.
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I couldn't have said it any better myself.

SpiderStaryu said:
It was a very brave thing for you to come out! It takes a lot of courage to do this, I'm very proud of you. :)

And you are the same as everyone else, don't let anyone tell you otherwise!  :D
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This as well. I'm proud of you, man. Take things at your own rate, and don't let people bring you down. Keep your head up!
 
I'm not going to lie and I am going to clock the tea where it needs to be clocked.
It is good that you know that you accepted it.
Some people are gay and don't say that they are and try to be on the "down-low".
There's nothing wrong that you're gay and don't let the other insignificant fuckers bring you down or discriminate upon you because to be clocking the tea where it needs to be, they are probably gay and just don't want to let others acknowledge it.
I know some people are gay and my true attitude does not change when I'm around them because there is no reason for a person to change and break your attitude (Your extremely weak when that happens).
Now only if I can defeat my fear of airplanes and fly to where you live and be beside you because I hate when people oppress and discriminate other people due to what that person feel, like, believe, or think.

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Dark Boo said:
I'm not going to lie and I am going to clock the tea where it needs to be clocked.
It is good that you know that you accepted it.
Some people are gay and don't say that they are and try to be on the "down-low".
There's nothing wrong that you're gay and don't let the other insignificant F***ers bring you down or discriminate upon you because to be clocking the tea where it needs to be, they are probably gay and just don't want to let others acknowledge it.
I know some people are gay and my true attitude does not change when I'm around them because there is no reason for a person to change and break your attitude (Your extremely weak when that happens).
Now only if I can defeat my fear of airplanes and fly to where you live and be beside you because I hate when people oppress and discriminate other people due to what that person feel, like, believe, or think.

Yes I did went in...
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Thank you Dark Boo!
 
Snowy said:
Though, I'd tell your family. As strange or difficult as it seems, you should be honest with them. and if they really do love you, they'll accept you for that.
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I agree you should be honest, but don't come out just cuz people say "come out no big deal". Make sure you are in a place where you yourself are READY, Polar. =P But like don't be forced to do something you may not feel ready to do.
 
SpiderStaryu said:
Snowy said:
Though, I'd tell your family. As strange or difficult as it seems, you should be honest with them. and if they really do love you, they'll accept you for that.
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I agree you should be honest, but don't come out just cuz people say "come out no big deal". Make sure you are in a place where you yourself are READY, Polar. =P But like don't be forced to do something you may not feel ready to do.
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I would like to tell my family, but there is a part of me that just can't do it.

I told two more of my friends aswell (I know it's not much). The guy who I told didn't really care if I was gay, so he still talked to me and everything, the other girl I told, well she hasn't really talked to me. I almost told the guy I like (I wasn't going to tell him I loved him though). I planned to tell him at the end of our sport lesson and during sport I actully found out he thinks being a homosexual is gross and wrong.
 
Good for you. I'm not sure how Australia's treatment of homosexuals is (because the States is horrible).

Telling your family is probably one of the hardest things you can do. Like Snowy said, if they really do care about you they'd accept you for it rather than treat you any different.
 
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